Making Peace with Peace: Reconnecting with Christmas After Cancer
Huffington Post | December 21, 2016I never take Saturday nights off from work. Ever. Saturday nights are how I pay my electric bill. My everything bill. But this past weekend, I found something so deeply important to my soul and my physical being, that it was a must: I went to church. Before I go on; a disclaimer: I am not trying to sway anyone in any way of religion. I have not changed my mind about Christianity. I do not believe that what-we-do/any-prayer-we-say on this earth determines our eternal fate. I HAVE, however, opened my heart to immaculate possibilities (in every way). And so it goes…
Life After Cancer: Finding Meaning In The Mundane
Huffington Post | June 23, 2016I need to slowly add the important things back into my life. The novelty of cancer has started to wear off. The excitement (both good and bad) surrounding my diagnosis has begun to dissipate and I’m left feeling like a normal, albeit a little beat up, 36-year-old mother to a 7-month-old boy and partner to a 44-year-old man. In my day-to-day there seem to be less adjectives and more nouns. Less clarity, time, and articulation to feeling, and more facts to life. For Mike and me, the who-does-what around the house and who’s-working-more-this-week and who-last-changed-Sam and how-many-more-fucking-diapers-can-we-stuff into-that-steel-bin before-one-of-us-takes-out-the-trash resentments have begun. I can assume this is somewhat normal behavior for couples with young children since we are all sleep deprived, learning a new way of selfless giving and are a little grumpy about both of those things.