Turns out, Fear found his way back into my life.  Honestly, he never really left.  He just pushed over.  Like a bratty sibling who eventually squirms her way back into the window seat.  I thought I was exempt from his powers so long as I was soaking up every moment and grateful for each … Continue reading A Wolf in Sheep’s Clothing

For a while I thought I got cancer as punishment because it was my fault that my first marriage ended.  I hadn’t exactly followed my vows with dotted I’s and crossed T’s.  It reached a point where I had to come clean and even after confessing my wrong-doing, my then husband extended the olive branch, … Continue reading The Exorcism

“This deep, dark place is where the magic happens.  It can be awful, but it can also be super sweet.  Let it change you, lean into it and let it transform you.”    -My Guru, Jen during the Winter of 2012 There are several ways to go through cancer.  Lots of different paths to take … Continue reading Feeling all of the Feels

I’ve thought about entitling my book, “The Human Connection Project” because once I was diagnosed with cancer, it seemed like relating to others was one of the things that mattered most to me.  I found myself connecting with nurses, doctors, other patients and everyone in between as we shared (often intimate) stories about our lives.  I … Continue reading A Little Help

The novelty of cancer has started to wear off.  The excitement (both good and bad) surrounding my diagnosis has begun to dissipate and I’m left feeling like a normal; albeit a little beat up, 36 year old mother to a 7 month old boy and partner to a 44 year old man.  In my day … Continue reading One. By. One.